I know I have been largely absent from this space. And friends, one day I hope to have the words to share where I’ve been these last few months.
But for now, I’m moving forward. We’ve been homeschooling, and it say it’s going well would be an understatement. The kids are flourishing, enjoying learning. Our family is growing together and yet each member is learning independence, who they are. It has been beautiful to watch and an honor to be a part of.
But it has also led me away from any quiet I used to have. Even quiet amidst the noise.
And instead of embracing this new non-quiet, I have been trying to hide away. Trying to steal moments for myself.
And while it is certainly necessary to find time for rest – I lost sight of what I am doing. I lost sight of these little ones I am guiding and raising up.
And I was losing my joy.
You see, I had forgotten that my joy was not connected to quiet. I have forgotten that my joy was not connected to my plans. Because my joy only comes from the Lord.
In seeing Him in the very places He calls me. Even when that is a home filled with noise. In serving Him by loving the ones He places before me. Even if they are screaming and unwilling. In walking the path He leads me on.
And so today, I am choosing to move back to the noisy bar stools of my kitchen counter. To rest. To think. To read the Word.
Because all of this is where I am called to be. And hiding from it will never grow them or myself.
For who am I to say no to such generous blessing?
Where do you find yourself today? Are you, like me, trying to run from the noise and the stress…but to no avail? Can I encourage you to embrace the noise. To remember that this is certainly a beautiful thing. One to be thankful for. Even in the midst of those ever trying days.